Of being back up again

It has been such a long break- from this journal, blog and Karmic. I guess sometimes in the middle of our mundane things, life happens. Birth, separation, illnesses, happiness and heartbreak. And we are thrown off balance, slipping away from the thin string of normalcy.

And here I am back again, trying to get up and find those strings again- of normalcy, music, work and life in general. And it has been hard. There comes a time, especially soon after a new start- when we start doubting our abilities, ourselves. Where the battle to restore order seems harder than the one we overcame to start in the first place.

An honest confession- I have tried to give up several times in the past few days. In a very unlike me manner- so soon, and after all the struggles and obstacles to reach here. Sometimes the easiest thing to do in life is to let go.

And each time, there has been a sign- subtle but there. To stay put. To hang on to those threads. To let this doubt pass by. Too many times to not notice.

I guess it really is true that everything in our lives is pre-planned. Our paths laid out. Yes, our choices matter but there is something beyond. And today- I am reminding myself that while we may not be the best, and at the place where we want to be- yet we matter. And just like that- I baked again today. After a long hiatus. And after doubting my choices and path so much over the past few days, I do know that we matter- in this place and time, in however small manner.

Karmic Foods is back up again today. And so is the music around. And while life will stumble us every now and then- we will try to get back up each time. And in our own small way- we matter. And that is what matters in the end!